Wednesday, October 13, 2004

dilemna

Well, it's not exactly a dilemna.. it's probably worse! I just can't find a better word to describe the situation..

You know how I have mentioned before that I was looking forward to Sat so I could wish him happy birthday? Things have just taken such a strange turn, and my plans have had to be constantly changed.. I hate this!

My initial plan was to wish him happy birthday on the stroke of midnight on Sat to give him a nice surprise. Then it was changed coz I was worried he might have made plans already. Then my next plan was to sms him on thurs.. to give an excuse that I only remembered his birthday only because of the ICQ prompt..

That plan seemed pretty ok until this morning... I received an sms from W asking if I was free this sat.. I thought we were going out in a group, probably to sing KTV again so I said ok.. And it turned out he wanted to watch movie, and I guess, just the two of us. I am fine with it, but why did everything have to happen at the same time?

So I told him afternoon would be fine, hoping I can leave the evening for him.. But that's not even confirmed yet!!

Perhaps I am thinking too much but I dunno how I should broach the subject to the 2 guys (if that one works out) that I am meeting them one after another... And we all know each other!!

Should I
1) tell W I am meeting him later or
2) tell him I met W earlier on
3) ask W to join in
4) ask him to join in

AND.. what might he think if he knows I agreed to watch a movie with W?? Will he tease me further or worse, misunderstand my intentions??

So my plan now would be to sms him tomorrow and tell him that I remembered his birthday after all (not coz of any prompt) and ask him about his plans. This is so embarrassing!

But if I don't, I might just lose the chance of getting to know him on a deeper level..

Sense the awkwardness??

I am going crazy thinking about this ever since this morning's sms..

And to further aggravate my agony, I seem to be getting advice with regards to what I should do..

The latest CLEO issue ran an article about the consequences of gals who play hard to get with the guy they are interested in.. and the horoscope writeup in i-Weekly mentioned that I should be more pro-active and take the initiative whenever necessary.. How apt advice.. but whether I would heed it is a totally different matter altogether..

Haiz.. if only I could sleep all my troubles away...

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