What a comeback!

Am blogging while I am keeping my eyes glued to the Champions League final between AC Milan and Liverpool. Most difficult multi-tasking so far!

As football commentators would say, it has been a cracker of a match!

Supported Liverpool because

1. they are English;

2. this is their first final in 21 years;

3. Milan has already won the Champions League 2 years ago and

4. Liverpool finished 5th in the Premier League and by rule, they have no chance of competing in the Champions League next season. The trophy, hopefully, would be a consolation for them.

Been a wonderful game so far. Milan was 3-0 up before half time and frankly, I wanted to go to sleep then. But, I just had this little little hope of seeing how Liverpool would fight back in the 2nd half. And true enough, they did. In the space of 6 minutes! Steven Gerrard scored first (54th minute), followed by Smicer (56th), and lastly Alonso (71st) completed the spectacular comeback.

The last 20 minutes was pure agony but it still went on to extra time.

30 minutes of extra time still failed to separate the two teams. I am glad Uefa scraped golden goals or silver goals. It is such a terrible strain on one's heart. The pulsating feel, the sense of holding one's breadth and the utter sense of despair when the game ends, just like that.

Down to penalty kicks. Love and hate this segment. The adrenaline rush when your team scores or the goalkeeper blocks a shot from the rival team is as high as when your rival team scores or when they block your shot... Brrr!!

Current penalty score: Pool 2 Milan 0

Are Milan that bad???!! Their morale probably took a disastrous dive when Smicer scored the equalizing goal. I pity them.

2-1 to Pool

Still 2-1 Pool. Riise's shot is blocked! How dramatic can everything get???!!

2-2 Milan.

3-2 Pool

Liverpool are the new Champion League winner 2005, winning 3-2 on penalties (3-3 full time).

WHAT A COMEBACK!

Kudos to Liverpool for staging such a beyond belief, spectacular comeback! It must be really hard on AC Milan! Their disappointment must be immense. This victory definitely more than makes up for Pool's domestic failures this season!

I must admit. This Champions League makes it more spectacular than Man Utd's victory over Bayern Munich in Barcelona in 1999, albeit by a little. I seem to be recollecting and reliving that victory 6 years ago although the winners are supposedly Man U's bitter rivals.. Six years??!! Has it been that long? Man U had better buck up next season.

Been a while since I blogged a soccer entry. Am losing touch (and interest) with it, no thanks to Man U's failures and the absence of cable. What kind of a fan am I? But this game has been so amazing it has aroused my failing interest in the sport by a huge margin!

Looking forward to the New Paper tomorrow. I am glad I witnessed such a historic moment in Champions League history!

ciao!

The curse of modern technology

Now that I am cooped up at home, devoid of much human contact except the occasional meeting up with friends or the mindless chatting with neighbours/salespeople etc. (time with family doesn't count), I am beginning to appreciate the existence of modern commiunication tools, most notably to me, the trio of the TV, the computer and the telephone. And this is all the more so since I have an abundance of time on my hands now...

Much as I appreciate them, I worry for their continued existence in this household because all three of them are seriously overworked.

The Television Set(s)

We have 3 television sets at home, one in the hall, one each in my room and my Grandma's room. This is nothing to boast about; almost everyone has more than one TV now. And having a TV in my room, I know I am fortunate. But it has turned out to be a bane at times. How to study with the blaring TV next to you? How to sleep with the blaring TV AND the glaring light on AND deafening laughter in the dead of the night?? (I sleep with my younger sis, that's why I am subjected to such torture.)

Thank goodness the TV in my room is only a bane during school time. Phew! But as a result of this, it is overworked. The situation is aggravated because a brand new VCD cum DVD player has joined it, courtesy of Grandma. She couldn't stand hearing Sis beating and slapping the old and beyond repair player. My heart skipped a beat a few weeks ago when the whole TV suddenly turned mute. I can't bear having to spend the money to send it for repair or worse still, get a new one!

It is still fine at the moment, although I can't help but worry for its survival. The TV is on at least 3 hours every weeknight and the figures at least doubles for every day of the weekend. The VCD player as well, gets worked slightly less or equally hard as the TV as well.

The TV in the hall, at least 8 years and *fingers crossed* counting, still works relatively fine except for the occasional turning green of the screen and the absence of NICAM. The latter especially, doesn't bother me much now because of the dearth of Japanese dramas on TV nowadays. But I am disappointed I didn't discover this function much earlier when it was still working and there were still nice and quality Japanese dramas on TV. Bleah!

There is the whole package in the living room as well. Short of the newest home entertainment system, our system is rather full-fledged, with the LD player, HiFi system, DVD player, VCR player etc. The first two are more of white elephants. The LD era seems to have gone. The situation is similar to the one in my room. Dad uses the VCD player the most, watching his favourite concert VCDs/Cantonese drama serials the Nth time.

The last TV in my Grandma's room is relatively new, and overworked as well. I think the situation is not as bad now, because the new-look Channel U has cut down (or removed totally?) on the number of Taiwanese Hokkien dramas. It was really bad in the past. Here's how it was.

Channel 8: Hokkien drama from 4.30pm to 5.30pm, Mondays to Fridays (which she would watch on the TV in the hall)

Channel U: 2 consecutive Hokkien dramas from 4.30pm to 6.30pm, Mondays to Fridays. These two, she would tape them.

Then at 10.30pm after the news on Channel U, she would watch Taiwan Pi Li Huo, and during commercial breaks, watch a little of the shows she taped in the afternoon.

She hates it when I make only a passing comment about her watching TV habits, although I must admit that some of the shows are nice. Long and lo so yes, but the plots got pretty engaging at times! I missed not being able to watch Pi Li Huo after its finale, which was fantastic! But I digress.

Won't you worry for my TVs after learning of their "plight"? Sigh. And this is only the first of the trio....

The Desktop Computer

There is actually another desktop computer with no Internet access (no communication to talk of, and which I hardly use. So I shan't talk about.) and my Fujitsu laptop which requires dialup and has a snail pace speed of 56kps (Dial up is too expensive compared to the unlimited access at $47.25 on the desktop, and is too troublesome to connect as well. Besides, it is lying in my room like a white elephant as well because I only use it for churning out reports for school. So I shan't comment on it as well.)

The main computer that is excessively used has no particular brand. All its components were manually assembled by my uncle, keeping in line with the low-cost mantra. Unlimited broadband access is a godsend, although the incidence of virus attacks, spyware, Trojan worms increases exponentially. But I trust my anti-virus program, Zone Alarm firewall and AdAware to do a good job of maintaining my computer less-virus/worm/spyware-prone for me. At least it is so much more better than the ancient times of dial up, where I was practically keeping my eyes glued to the clock with every minute passed while my sis was using the computer. The fees then were exorbidant!

The computer has been reformatted at least 4 times and it is only slightly more than 2 years old. And I am always the one doing all the dirty work (i.e. reformatting, installing anti-virus, asking for help etc.) There is also bound to be lots of fingerpointing between my sis and I since we are the two main users. The virus came from your profile. No lor, I did the virus scan. More than half of the worms came from your profile. Something along that line. Childish right?

We are heavy users. The longest time I could recall was 9 hours at one shot, by my sister coz she was doing her project CUM MSN-ing, blogging, checking mail, checking Friendster and a hell lot of other stuff!

Checked our usage for the month of April. 119 hrs and 55 minutes. File transfer of 1463 MB. That is on average 3.97 hours per day. OK, reasonable. Could be lower, considering that we were both at school for most of the month and I shoild have been mugging for my exams.

It has become a routine for me to do a Disk Cleanup and an AdAware scan before I log on to the Internet AND after I am done with it. Plus an anti-virus scan weekly. Call me kiasu, but I am really tired of having to call for help when the system crashes!

The Telephone

I am not referring to my mobile phone. It is the cordless phone we have at home. I am a very light user of it, since I rely on SMS and mobile phone calls. But I still get so irritated with it.

Firstly, because it is cordless, everyone in my family has gotten so lazy (me included). We bring the phone into our rooms, bathrooms, kitchen etc to continue our conversation and leave it there. When the next call comes (which is rather frequent), we go round searching frantically for it. The last cordless phone we had was much better. Probably sensing the common habits of consumers, it had a "phone-locator" button when pressed would sound a constant ringing sound for us to *duh* locate the phone. I miss the old phone.

Secondly, this new phone also has a horrible, horrible ringtone! It screeches! It becomes a terrible nuisance to hear it if you are cooped up in the house or day (like me!) And given that we get calls at intervals of at 15 mins (sometimes shorter) at times, I hope I have not inadvertably become a potential candidate for the owner of a hearing aid!

Overwork or not, I am not too sure because I don't look/don't dare to look at the telephone bills, although I do know the phone starts to buzz with activity once my youngest sis gets home as she is bombarded with calls from her classmates! I wonder what they do in school all day. They are in school as well, but don't seem to note down whatever the teacher says. So they need to call my sis everytime for help! My sis is in Primary 6 now and this has started since she was in Primary 1!! The irritating parts are that most of the questions seem to require only one-word answers, the same girl can call back at the count of 5 after the first call, and the calls don't seem to decrease after the exams or even during the holidays!

Lastly, I hate it, hate it when the phone forces me out of my beauty sleep! i am always the victim, because my younger sis would never, ever pick up the phone. Either, she is sleeping like a log and can't hear it, or she is pretending to be deep in sleep because she knows I would have to pick it up. I suspect it is the second.

The phone is really getting on my nerves. I cringe with annoyance when I hear that ringing. Pui!

Yes, I know we need to reduce our reliance of such faceless forms of communication and build up our communication with real people. But for now, the second would have to take a back seat as I continue to immerse myself and fall deeper into the curse of modern technology.

Ciao! Watching TV...

I lead a totally boring life!

I have so much spare time now that I wished the exams hadn't ended or lessons were still conducted.

But we can't turn back time.

On a particular normal day (i.e. no going out, just nua-ing at home), one can practically adjust their watches according to my activities with clockwork precision.

I miss the late-night Net surfing sessions but I haven't done that in a long time. This is because I have so much time in the day to surf all the sites I want to.

Suddenly, I miss structure. I miss keeping to deadlines. I miss last-minute mugging. I miss rushing out tons of projects and reports. I miss school.

I can't live each day aimlessly. What happened to the spirit of carpe diem?

I want a job NOW! I am glad I am at least working on something on this front. I've got an interview on Tuesday. Frankly speaking, I am starting to develop a phobia of interviews.

I wanted to go on holiday badly before my exams but considering the circumstances now, I think it would be more vital to secure a job first. I need the money.


Courtesy of www.devitart.com

I have no life.

Of architecture and grievances

So much for an enthusastic employment hunt. Bleah.

I had "anticipated" with dread, the "interview" with Company A for days: wondering about my future job situation with them, meeting clients etc. etc. I decided to give the company a "chance" to impress me with what they could offer me, and conversely, hoped they would give me a chance to prove my capabilities to them. I knew right from the beginning this would be a job title of a financial advisory representative (somewhere along that line), hence many similarities with an insurance agent. But I fooled myself thinking that since Company B is a rather established company, Company A, being its subsidiary, shouldn't be too bad. I genuinely looked forward to being able to "market" unit trusts, bonds, options, on top of the regular insurance policies to my prospective clients.

My appointment time was scheduled for 8.30 am on Wednesday and I was told it would last a day till 6pm. Dread! But I decided I had to go for it, just to "listen to things" because if I didn't, I might have missed out on possible opportunities. And I was still, on my way to the office, still hoping that there would be other positions other than positions of financial advisers available. All that thought came to nought though, as I was to find out.

Left my place at 7.30am, and I really, really felt good to be part of the working crowd, on board packed buses, seemingly on my way to "work". Besides, I was clad in true working class "gear" - smart shirt-pants-pointed heels combo.

I was not late. I hope I am slowly regaining my sense of direction. Hahaha. The moment I stepped into the building, I was greeted with a sense of awe.



The building looks different from any typical office building. It had won the Best Buildable Design Awards in 2003.



The plaza looked just magnificent! The place had a distinct European feel to it and I felt as if I was in Venice. It is getting harder to find such a building which can boast of its congruence with Singapore's growing commercialization and modernisation, while still preserving its historic image.



The lobby is another architectural wonder. A lady branch manager mentioned that the advisors often brought their clients here for meetings during our orientation tour. The feedback from clients have been very positive so far. The best gain from my trip to Company A is probably learning of such a place. A jazz band plays there every night, and prices are not exorbitant. The best of all, it boasts of possibly the world's tallest wine cellar. I was told there are "angels" who would "fly" up and down the cellar to get wines. I imagine that the sight must be real queer but fantastic!

Enough of that. We went to Gateway, another building where Company A had an office. This was where everything began. Saw a couple of familiar faces. Not surprising, considering Company A was appealing to all fresh graduates, irregardless of specializtion. We were split into groups and it was a diverse group. There was a guy from Engineering, a girl from Arts, and two of us from Business, Finance and Applied Economics.

Everything felt like an orientation program. Meaningful games were played, "sermons" were preached etc. But the niggling discomfort I had was the constant reiteration of this phrase: We are watching you. It seems that this whole program is being run a la Survivor, where people would be voted off at different sessions. There were spies around, from the very junior advisers right to the CEOs. So the message was to watch what you say and how you behave.

I hated that! I felt as if there were several hidden cameras tracking our every move. I am probably exaggerating, but I just felt it seemed like a horrible intrusion of my privacy! I was also in two minds; I was feeling so restless and tired from listening to all the "sermons" that I longed to go home. I wished for myself to be eliminated. On the other hand, it was embarrassing to be called home, especially at the first elimination. The way they handled this was so tactless. The MC/speaker read names from a sheet of paper and called them to go to meet a particular person. This is still OK. Why did the speaker have to tell the whole group that those people were eliminated??!! Was this a way to constantly keep us on our toes and to show the most accepted behavour? Pui!

Lunch time at 1pm. And surprise, surprise. There was a catered buffet. This was a kind gesture on their part, but I viewed it differently. I decided they were using this to win our hearts and prevent us from leaving while we went out for lunch. I apologize for thinking that way, because they totally spoilt my plans! I was thinking of leaving during the lunch hour. This would kill two birds with one stone. I could leave but not face the embarrassment of elimination. Of course, this was not to be.

More preaching and group discussions and one last elimination round was to follow after lunch. High flying advisers shared their testimonials. There was a guy who gave up his promising career with the army because of office politics to join Company A. He has only been in the job for a year and 3 months and he earned $600,000 last year. But how many people can achieve such a feat? There was a common theme among the testimonials that were shared. They tugged at our heartstrings with talk of not gaining acceptance and understanding from parents initially, being from a poor family, wanting to prove others wrong.

But I was particularly incensed with the last speaker. He questioned our attitude and said frankly that out of the over 40 people here, probably only 5 would make it. Why is he making it sound like the company is investing "millions" in us and we should try to show more initiative? I didn't apply for Company A, mind you. They sent a letter to me, requesting my attendance. And, if we were ever going to take time to consider or ask our parents if we were offered a chance to join the company, it only means we are not interested. How true is this? One guy in his testimonial mentioned he agreed to take up the job even before consulting his parents. I can't do this even if I have a lot of passion and interest for the job. This isn't about being indecisive or lack of interest. This is the basic respect for people who are depending on you to support them after devoting selflessly to your own development.

I was totally pissed off, although I must applaud all the speakers for their ability to make you feel bad for leaving such an "engaging and informative discussion". They would say things like (not the exact words),

"This is going to last past 6pm, so people with appointments, I will give you time to SMS or phone your friends or family to postpone the appointments. You may leave too, depending on how serious you view this event."

The last phrase is the killer jolt. Who would leave in such a situation? If one person leaves, everyone can see him. It is just like the elimination thing. Why shame people in front of everyone?

The speaker finally ended and I was not prepared for the next shock that was to come. Our group leaders started bringing some formalities like talking about the perks of the job (again!) before moving to their main objective (motive). We had to register for the qualification exams to get our licence before we could be considered for another round of selection. The fees came to over $200 and we had to pay on the spot.

I was feeling very uncomfortable about the fees and I am so proud of myself about voicing my doubts right on the spot. I did not succumb to the pressure or the "coercing" from the team leader. I told him frankly that this position was not my ideal career and I needed time to speak to my parents and consider.

His face turned all solemn and "black" and told me my words gave the impression that the company was desperate (yes, he actually said this) to hire me. I had the exact feelings but obviously I did not want to incur his wrath anymore!

(not the exact words) "This is the only chance and if you do not take it, it is too bad. We probably won't call you again. But if we can't become colleagues, you could become my client. Feel free to call me...." How typical! I heard from another girl he asked her to introduce her friends to him to join the company.

Makes me wonder if there is a quota each adviser has to fulfil in bringing in new people....

Long, long entry, but heck, at least I finally managed to air my grievances!

KTV

Had a KTV session at Partyworld Bishan yesterday. Been more than 5 months since I met up with everyone. I am definitely happy to see everyone, in a out-of-school context. Finally!

No assignment worries, no exam blues, no project deadlines. I don't think our topics revolved around schoolwork much. It was basically crap, crap and more crap!

Met some of them for lunch first at 1pm before the session started at 2pm, which was to last till 7pm!! Hahaha.. 5 hours marathon singing!!!

W brought along his classmate from Game Theory class - Georgina. She is quite a nice person to chat with, coz she is one of us.. Chinese speaking by default!

We proceeded to our now familiar eating place at one of the S11 coffeeshops for dinner - zi cha, with this "full chested" auntie forming the butt of our jokes. Sigh.. I shouldn't be so mean!

But it was an enjoyable time and for once, we did not leave immediately after the meal. We "strolled" and walked around J8 before settling down at Delifrance for coffee and more crap! I never laughed so much in a long, long time! My abdomen was aching from all that laughter!

I love these people! They are such a fun bunch to hang out with! I sure hope there are more of such gatherings in the future!

Chalets, holidays, BBQs? Let's have them!

It is confirmed. I am a procrastinator.

You scored as ADD. Your procrastination type is ADD. Attention deficit disorder, or ADD, is one neurological cause of procrastination. Frequently with ADD, there is difficulty staying with a task and seeing it through to completion because of a tendency to get sidetracked.

ADD 75%
Worrier 69%
Overdoer 69%
Perfectionist 63%
Crisis-maker 63%
Dreamer 56%
Defier/rebel 50%
Not a procrastinator 44%
Teenager 38%

Pretty accurate, especially the worrier and overdoer part. But 56% Dreamer? I expected it to be much higher.. heehee

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Clueless

Still in rest-and-relax mode.

All the interviews I have attended so far and are going to attend appears to be dampening my spirits. I think it is because I do not know what I want. I majored in Finance because I envisioned myself working in some big corporation, managing a group of subordinates. I know where my problem lies. What is the job description that I want? What is the exact job title that I desire? I am clueless.

It seems that most of the finance-related jobs out there for me are as a role of a financial adviser a.k.a insurance agent. I know I shouldn't be complaining in such a depressing job market but I really don't like it. It is so unglam! The thought of having to be all chummy with friends you probably meet less than 5 times a year and persuading them to buy insurance really puts me off! And why do they seem so eager in praising me to the skies and glossing over my so-so capabilities? Because nobody wants to be a financial adviser ! And, this position is not exclusive to degree holders! Diploma holders can be a financial adviser too!

I am totally screwed up. The big corporations don't want me and the small insurance companies are scrambling to get me. I am in such an odd situation!

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My desktop has been fixed! It did not literally mean "boot failure" as suggested by the system. Turned out that the settings were a little disturbed, that's all. Hence, it did not render the need for reformatting or dismantling of the hardware.

I am eternally grateful to Uncle Chow. He is the technician who oversees the maintenance of the "ratings machine" in our house. He was the person I called instead of our "regular guy", Uncle Ming, my dad's cousin, because if we really had to send our PC to the latter for a complete overhaul, it would take months because he is always so busy!

I had wanted to call Uncle Chow hoping to solve the problem over the phone, but he volunteered to come down the next night on Monday.

When he came, he unscrewed the CPU, made some "magical changes", modified the settings a bit, and viola, everything was back to working order! When he realised there were some problems with the power supply, he gave us another three-pin plug F.O.C! This is on top of the Norton Anti-Virus 2005, Anti-Spy and Windows XP with SP2 CDs he left behind!

And to top it all up, he refused any fees for his effort! To think I always grumbled when he called in the past because of yet another problem with the ratings machine!

Whatever it is, thanks Uncle!

Through his actions, I have learnt not to too critical of people, to be less 计较, to learn to live and let live.

Reestablishing contact

Alright, I have finally done it.

I just sent a message to him through Friendster. Yah, might seem like peanuts, but it definitely meant a great deal to me!

It's not as if I haven't done it before. I have nothing to lose. The Internet is so faceless and emotionless. He might not reply, but at least I know I gave it a try.

Maybe there was a sign for me NOT to message him. Because just as I was about to do so last nght, my whole desktop shut off by itself. Fuck! There seems to be another boot failure again and I am keeping my fingers crossed that the hardware is still intact :(

I defied the signs. I know me. There is a "window period" whereby I have all the courage, beyond which I would start having second thoughts about doing things.

I would probably regret it later, but heck! at least I have sent the message out, so it won't do me any good to leave any room for regrets!

A Pleasant Surprise

Just came back from the library. Thank God I went to the Sengkang library instead of AMK. It was raining cats and dogs when I wanted to leave. At least at SK, the journey back home would be all sheltered!

Checked my NUS email today and I got a pleasant surprise. It was an email from Dr Koh, my Leadership tutor this semester. The email was titled "Group Email" and I thought it was another "nonsense" email for the whole class again.

I was smiling by the time I finished reading it. It made me feel that I mattered to Dr Koh.

The email he sent:

Dear Group,

Time flies so very quickly. It has been more than a month since I received the email from Ben that he had taken ill and was unable to help out with the group project. I then see how this group closed rank, worked doubly hard to make up for the shortfall, and even decided to give Ben the full credit for the group project (despite his illness and inability to contribute significantly). Although I could not give the group any extra credit, all of you shall always remain in my memory for being a very very generous, understanding, and forgiving group.

And now Matthew has sent me the case study that you purchased in the course of doing your project. I hope to use the case somehow. But even if I do not use it, it is yet another fantastic gesture of un-selfishness on behalf of your group.

As your lecturer, I must say that actions such as these speak volumes about your character, something which, to me, is more precious than the grades you will score on my subject.

I cannot award 'A's to everyone. But I must say that in my heart, every single one of you has my deepest and heartfelt respect. You made me proud to be your lecturer, and you will be the beachmark upon which I will judge all future groups in term of teamwork and selflessness.

Rgds,
Dr Koh

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I didn't expect him to remember our group and the circumstances. But he did. I am so touched. To think I had started to believe some of the not-so-good opinions his ex students had of him.

This email sure brightened up my day.

Crazy finds!!

I have a principle for shopping. Die hard bargain queen. Always gives me an immense sense of satisfaction when I am able to fish out amazing finds for much lower cost!

Some of my bargain finds...


From Mango. Only cost me $25!!


Fond Hugs. A steal at $13!!!


DCP. 50% discount!!


Charles & Keith. Love this bag! Only $25.40 after 15% discount from a coupon from the latest issue of Her World ! Woohoo!!

Random ramblings

Finally! I have finally changed my blog layout after much indecisiveness and pondering! It is so sleek, so uncluttered and simple! I love it! Especially the super cute 晴天公仔! Been rewatching "With Love" and I am going gaga over their quotes and all things to do with the serial!

Cooped up at home all day. But loving it! Planning to do more solitary work in the next few days. First up, the library tomorrow! There are so many books I want to read!

Ciao~

Another bo liao quiz

Your Birthdate: May 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I need the confidence!

I am scheduled for an interview on Wednesday. I was elated when I received the call initially. Then the career office people sent me an email, together with nine other recipents... My confidence took a real dip.

This isn't my first interview, at least considering other interviews for temporary jobs. I am so worried I will freak out. It has happened before.

Heck! I shan't think about it now.

Bleah!