You are 47% Gemini

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

In a nostalgic mood

Ok.. Feeling better today. I was so disappointed last night that I woke up this morning still feeling terrible! How bad is that!

Heard Stef's "害怕" over the radio while we were out shopping yesterday. How appropriate it was, for us to hear the song together when this song harboured such significance for us not too long ago.. Well, I would say it still harbours some significance for me till this day...

忘 我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長
想 我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強
堅強到不用學著不想 學著遺忘
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意地聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沈澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信 走下去

One of my favourite Yan Zi songs! Each line is so meaningful!

How many times have I tried to put you out of my mind only for your memories to come flooding my heart again?

當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄

How true, but so cruel too......... Shoots me back to reality...

Ignore me... I am in one of my sentimental moods again.. thinking about the past again. It happens, though not as frequently now.

Tiring day today.. my feet are aching like hell! Went shopping for Peishan's and Audrey's presents today with Shunmei and Huiqing. Well, before I talk about that, the "scoop" about yesterday's movie date...

Met him at Bishan around 6.50pm. While we were on MSN, he even suggested getting the couple seat.. In the end, the tickets for The Incredibiles were sold out, and we had to go to AMK for the show. Saw Peijie before we left.

Thank God tickets were available for the show. Well, not bad over all, although I wanted to watch Bridget Jones but it's only released today!

Went to eat supper after the show. We ordered quite a lot of food.. had a hard time finishing them! Turns out he's working during the holidays at Citibank. And I still thought I could chat with him in the afternoons! Bleah!

He walked with me to the interchange. And we made a stupid mistake! We should have walked to the bus stop near the MRT station coz he had to take his bus there. In the end, he had to walk all the way again.. Haiz..

Ok.. bad news! Can't play mahjong tomorrow already.. W gotta go his grandma's place.. Saaadd!! Wah!!! I feel so sian!! The curse is at it again! I was expecting it the whole week!!

Well, my mood is totally gone.. shan't talk about today's shopping trip except that it was super tiring!

Blur blur me

How blur can I get??!!! I actually remembered the time of my paper wrongly! The paper was 1pm when this blur girl here thought it was 2pm all along!

To think I actually noted down on my phone it was 1pm!! Thank God I reached the venue early (well, not very lah.. plonked into my seat at 1.40pm!)

I was actually wondering why the school system is so cocked up and everyone could start early! Hahaha.. what a fool! I became so panicky when I saw the start time written on the board!

But... I managed to finish the paper on time! And had time to check the MCQ once! Phew... Luckily I used my S/U option for this.. if not, I dread to think of the consequences!

K.. gonna watch movie le..

Ciao~

I'm counting down to my holidays! Can't wait for Wednesday to come and the paper to be done and over with!

Definitely looking forward to the holidays.. Got great stuff planned! (erm.. maybe not exactly great stuff.. mahjong session on Fri, then probably KTV sessions with my jc clique and uni clique.) But that's enough to make me all so fidgety for the whole day! Well, better not think too much.. after all I'm still in the midst of my exams! *stifling giggles*

ciao~

为什么幸福的感觉总被思念所淹没？
为什么想要的承诺只能被微笑掠过？
如果得不到灵魂岂在乎耳鬓厮磨？
如果得不到永恒又何必长相厮守？
你可以重复着初恋，却不可以重复着后悔。
你可以重复着后悔，却不可以重复着最爱.”
幸福的感觉总被思念淹没，因为思念有时候是苦的。
承诺只能被微笑掠过，因为他不想说谎。
不想说谎，只好用微笑代替承诺。
没有灵魂，耳鬓厮磨就变得很丑陋，但为什么有些男人可以不要灵魂？
有时候，长相厮守并不代表永恒。他心里牵挂着的，也许是另一个人。
初恋的感觉也许会重来，但是你最好不要再爱上不该爱的人。
重复的后悔，太令人沮丧。
慧之后，并不代表可以重来。所谓最爱，只有一个人。
天涯海角，就只有这么一个人。
你今天幸福吗？幸福的感觉曾否被思念淹没？
听到承诺时，又是否只能微笑？

Another worthless online quiz

A true blue sucker for another online quiz.. again!

But, results are quite true. Fits me to a T!

Your Temperament is Guardian.

Guardians, are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply--and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses.

Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel.

Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly--they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world.

Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap.

Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population.

Did quite a silly thing this morning. I msg him to wish him good luck for his M1 presentation today.

I knew about this a long ago and in fact I had been thinking in my head how I should go about drafting the message. Well, it turned out to be a very short one and I was glad he replied quickly enough. But as usual, SMS communication is so faceless. It is so hard to find out what he really meant just from the words!

D msg me this morning about a job giving out gift packs at Changi Airport. Well, it's pretty good, but the only drawback is the ungodly shift hours and working on weekends! I am still deliberating over whether I should take up the job and when I should start. And the reason for my indecisiveness? Working, esp on weekends means it would be hard for me to meet up with the rest for KTV. What if only I can't make it on a weekend?!! Arrrghh... I hate myself for thinking like that. My motivation for something is always wrong and so way off!!

Anyway, watched Bridget Jones's Diary on TV yesterday. I simply adore Renee Zellweger! Her performance was absolutely fabulous!

To quote from the movie: "I truly believe that happiness is possible even when you're thirty three and have a bottom the size of two bowling balls." Her character is a true inspiration to all singletons out there. That looks shouldn't matter in the pursuit for true love. (Cliche but how true!) Though I would have to admit that in today's society, it is just so hard!

Now I just badly want to catch the movie in the cinema!

Career Inventory Test


Withdrawn (I) 69.7% Outgoing (E) 30.3%
Realistic (S) 78.79% Imaginative (N) 21.21%
Intellectual (T) 58.82% Emotional (F) 41.18%
Organized (J) 73.53% Improvised (P) 26.47%


Your type is: ISTJ

You are a Trustee, possible professions include - management,accounting, auditing, efficiency expert, engineer, geologist, bank examiners, organization development, electricians, dentists, pharmacist, school principals, school bus drivers, file clerk, stock broker, legal secretary, computer operator, computer programmer, technical writer, chief information officer, police officer, real estate agent.

This is so true! Confirms that I haven't picked the wrong course and studied in vain this past 3 years! ;)

Freedom! Soon..

I love my new blog! Well, actually, it's more of the little girl! She's so adorable! Took me so long last night given that I am such a novice in this HTML thing! Well, still minor blips here and there, but heck! I am pleased with it!

I am in "relax gear" now. My semester is 3/4 over, with only my GEM paper and IFM project left. The past week has been so physically and mentally draining.

Asian markets on Monday, IFM presentation on Tuesday, FM on Friday before rounding up my "memorable" week with corporate finance on Saturday! Phew! At least I am still in one piece after the ordeal.

I can't wait for the holidays to come! Already, I am in "holiday planning" mode. My "Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown is still lying on my table, waiting anxiously for me to flip its pages! Ok, give me two more weeks!

Speaking of books, Iris Chang, the well-acclaimed authour of "The Rape of Nanking", allegedly committed suicide by putting a bullet through her head on Tuesday. She had been suffering from depression and never quite recovered. The reason was most probably because she was too drawn into the subjects of her novels, failing to come out of them. I have seen this book on the library shelves several times, but always chose not to borrow it cos I would always dismiss it to be "like any other history textbook" and the subject would be too heavy for my lterary consumption.

Well, I would attempt to look out for this novel the next time I go to the library for pure interest. Perhaps I would find it an engaging novel after I read it. But granted the herd mentality of most people, it might be hard for me to lay my hands on the books coz my gut feeling tells me that the novel would soon (or might have already) disappear(ed) off the shelves!

Other things on my tentative to-do-list-for-the-hols have basically remained the same over the years. Slacking, surfing the Net, shopping, exercising, meeting up with friends, watching VCDs.. blah, blah, blah. Heck, holidays are here for a reason, and I'm going make sure I enjoy it to the fullest, even if it means slacking at home! Coz this should be the last school holiday of my life (unless I go crazy and do honours by getting a CAP of 5 this semester, which is highly unlikely!)

On a more serious note, it is encouraging to see more young people taking up positions in the government, especially in Parliament. Just read an article run by The Sunday Times on ex-Miss Singapore Eunice Olsen, become a Nominated Member of Parliament (NMP) at a young age of 27.

Which makes me feel so guilty. Where would I be or be doing at 27? Most probably holding a job I might not even enjoy; and like a typical Singaporean, complain like I am already doing now, about the transport system, the weather, the government, and everything that pisses me off. And only get all patrotic come National Day.

This is where a stark difference emerges between Singapore and many other countries, like Hong Kong and the West.

All we ever do is to complain incesantly, but given the chance to speak up, we shut our mouths up. This is where a stark difference emerges that separates Singapore from many countries. Let's not even talk about the West. The Hong Kongers and Taiwanese are known for being outspoken. Yes, their outspokeness may sometimes translate into riots and demonstrations, but at least they speak up.

I am not advocating anything so extreme like Singaporeans should get together to form a demonstration to go against the government's policies. Young Singaporeans need to take up a more active stake in their country.

And I am trying to tell myself that too. Stop complaining too much and if there's anything you want, speak up!

Help!!

Arrrghhh!!! I have 3 final terms and a project presentation next week and I am not even half way through!

One part of me is dreading the arrival of next week; the other part of me can't wait for it to come.. next saturday! Yes! After corporate finance, I would only be left with the sickening GEM paper..

And the irony is.. I have 11 days to study for a paper I have already declared S/U option on!! (i.e. It doesn't matter whether I get an 'A' or not. I only need to get at least a 'C'!)

And I am just feeling so not at ease this few weeks. I haven't chatted with him online for sooo long! And it doesn't help that I don't already get much of a chance to see him around in school nowadays.

Feel so "scheming" today.. There wasn't supposed to be school today coz RT postponed the class to tomorrow. I was feeling so bad when she announced this earlier coz I would have missed the chance of seeing him around.. Then my IFM group mates planned a project discussion on Saturday (i.e. tomorrow)..

I was fine with it initially, but hey.. I thought sometimes we must do what our mind wants us to do. So I suggested changing the meeting time to today. And my reason? I won't be able to stay for long on Saturday coz I had "something on".. Hahaha!

And when I reached school around 11, I purposely chose a bench outside his classroom, hoping that he could see me after class.. True enough, he saw me!! Haa... He was wearing the shirt he wore for Marketing Stars Nite, and as usual, he looked good!

We talked for a while. I am just relieved that all is well; and we are still as friendly as ever, despite not chatting online for such a long time..

Ok, better get back to studying soon..

zzzz

What a turn of events

Helloo...

Had Asian markets presentation today.. Wasn't really pleased with it coz we rushed thru everything, all in under 20 minutes!!

And why?? that shitty group again! They took like 15 mins to get the technical stuff set up, and were bombarded with silly questions during Q&A.. And it didn't help when they took such a long time to answer each question!! When they finished, it was already an hour gone!! *faint ah*

Our ppt looks so impressive, especially the animation and flash! Thanks Heather! Just makes me feel so not-IT- savvy!

Lesson ended and we got our INSEAD case back.. Not bad.. A for written report, A- for oral presentation. Yay!! That's another A in the bag!

Went for lunch with Liyan after class, and I saw him at the round tables. He was having his project discussion.. Haiz.. but he was too far for me to go and say hi.. so I pretended I didn't see him..

Went to the com lab, albeit reluctantly.

W called around 3.50... That has been his usual practice. Usually I sort of dread it, but today I didn't mind, coz he was probably still in school!

I know this is so mean of me but I am actually starting to get a little worried coz W's actions really scare me, and I sometimes wonder why H can't be the one that takes the more initiative?? Well, probably coz he doesn’t feel the same way I feel for him..

Went to the canteen. True enough, he was still there! He joined us after a while. Yay! It was pouring and I decided against going home first.

Ok, I have a confession to make. I lied that I didn't bring an umbrella so that I would have an excuse to stay longer in school!

We went to CRC and W left after a while. So only him and I were left. I enjoyed the feeling, although both of us were so engrossed in our work and didn't talk much.

Left around 7pm. For the first time this semester, I am taking the same bus home with him!

The feeling is wonderful! Chatted a lot, laughed a lot.

I am quite relieved now, coz just a few days ago, I was feeling so annoyed that I hadn't chatted with him for quite some time. And like the usual me, I started to think all kinds of reasons.. like him trying to avoid me and stuff. How silly!

Well, I suppose everything is still like in the past: friendly and fun.

Don't think too much!

Ok.. sleeping soon.. Dun think I want to memorise my speech today… *Yawnz*